ToGeThEr As OnE___

2006-02-27T20:43:00.000+08:00

This were all the stuffs you wrote to me. How could you simply say things without thinking in the tagboard, saying to break away from me. It HURTS.
'-Jaeee,
Friday, February 10, 2006:
i didn`t receive. and lastly, i don`t see you in school one lah?

'-Jaeee,
Saturday, February 11, 2006:
whatever my aunty say i`m not ineterested lah. -.-you all always do things behind my back. smack you all man. irritating.i can`t call can`t sms. my msn also crazie crazie de. what the hell. i`m very busy these days lors. cos of coursework. must study study study. so many tuitions tuitions. gonna go crazie. sigh, i hope your friends did well in Os alright? so you can celebrate with them. your gmail thingy, i other day then see. brother wanna use com.takkare. i`m busy until i can`t breathe. i gotta go grandma house le. =)

'-Jaeee,
Sunday, February 12, 2006:
i didnt change my number for god sake. i don`t want to be somebody or whatever who manipulates your thoughts. i mean, you`ve a chance to go to NZ. why not? it`s a way of starting life all over again. no doubt you`ll miss you friends and family. but you can be somebody. you can fulfill your wishes, you can be recognised. you may be thinking i`m a faker again. whatever. i jsut think it`s a good opportunity to prove yourself. i never wanted to talk to you bout going to NZ, i knew it before you told me. cos i went to your blog. i don`t want to let you have second thoughts of staying. why not just give it a try?things may turn out better? you won`t know.but if you`re not in a stable condition.do consider.cos you`ll be alone. just hope, you won`t forget us. takkare.

'-Jaeee,
Sunday, February 12, 2006:
one more thing, friday. i have supp class and two tuitions, so i can`t go out. saturday i promised brep-ers already. this time, they`re the first. it`s not like what you say, afraid they`ll be angry bah. i don`t know either. sometimes, you really know me better than i do. yesterday, i went to the national library. and went to suntec. =) those bits and pieces of memories. brought back that little sweet sweet feeling. loll. x)

'-Jaeee,
Sunday, February 12, 2006:
whenever i go to your blog, and see you posting things. especially writing about you going out with your friends and having fun. i just get so emotional. i feel so happy for you. it`s like, seeing you happy with your friends. they are the only one who can really make your smile, and just let you forget all your troubles. thou i know you sure spend a lot of money de. -.- but i`m just happy, happy you have fun with them. loll. remember, post more in your blog alright? then i`ll know hows your life. cos i don`t see you in school and stuff. you don`t come down for recess. and sometimes, i don`t too. sorry, i`m talking too much. =)takkare.

'-Jaeee,
Sunday, February 12, 2006:
oh, and one more thing. =xi won`t be signing into friendster so often already.BUT you still must write and tellme how are you alright?whee!`. thankyou!`.Jaeee.

'-Jaeee
Monday, February 13, 2006:
loll,i expected this to happen already. i know you would think i`m faking my way through. thinking how much i want you to leave to get rid of you that`s why i asked you to go to NZ.i don`t mind already. how people think about me,i don`t really give a damn anymore.to you,i`m just someone who lies my way through everything.and i don`t think i can go out anymore either.i told you i`m going out,then i asked my mother.she said can`t.so i`m hoping i can ask her again so she`ll let me lors.don`t waste your friday and saturday waiting for me, do something useful.oh!`and i received a very nice valentine`s present from you!`.loll.you ate during recess today.whee!`so happy.when i saw you and laughed to myself.brenda thought i was mad.so throw face. >.< and i scored full marks for my amaths!`happy for me? whahahs!`i beat out the bitches,can this be a valentine`s present for you? x) i`m so happy i won them.friday i sure no time de, don`t need to see.takkare oh.happy valentines!

Jamie-
thankyou for caring,thankyou for your naggingsthankyou for your constant reminders.thankyou for everything.thankyou for understanding.thankyou for asking my friends look after mesorry for blowing my tops.sorry for throwing tantrums.sorry for the misunderstandings.sorry.. for giving updon`t always make extra efforts to make a girl happy. in the end, it will turn out like us. backfired.don`t do it to the next girl.she`ll get too pampered.

Re: Jamie-
maybe, i know. i shouldn`t blame you cos of wendy.but metally, it affects me. even when i see nelson.i get irritated. i just hate it.those comments she had on me, she told people about it. i can try to forget.but the hatred`s building up in me already.reply to this in friendster. don`t email me in msn.

Re: hey...
loll, i know who are you. always see you in schoolwith andy and yur other friends. just dunch knowyur name.and i added you in msn ler. Jaeeee`so

toyou,
okie, i`m fcuked up by your questions. very can.you`re smart you know what i mean when i say don`t let the love i have become hate. hell, i get so much stress and anger when talking to you.everything`s not going right.not even s SINGLE thing.everyday tuition all this.yah, i need something. very very seriously.i need to cool off, need to be alone. even my friends know i`m going crazy.blahblahblah, [am i daniel`s substitute?]] whattheHEAVEN. if i asked you am i your ex`s substitue, it`s as good as asking you to find another girl. feeling`s the same. thankyou very much. you kinda make me hate you.like i said, your answer`s too fcuked up. i won`t answer. and now what will you think? i`m showing my temper cos i`m denying it. so be it man. luoping, jiayi even you provoking me. nevermind, my life will get better each day. i`m not going to give a damn.seriously, i`m very hard on you. i admit. i really am. my attitude, temper, character sucks.but your questions piss me off even more can. my vulgarities are unstoppable alreadyeverything have came to this stage when there`s no turning back.sorry.takkare, get well soon.Jaeee`so

-DEAD
I don noe wat u said to ur dad to make him accuse me of harassing.i'm blamed once again.i made appointments with ur aunt.but she's always busy?hard to even make an appt.well...I kept my promise.But,i still accused of harassing.=)msg u don even wanna rpl?don even wanna tell me wat happened to you?well.den lets jus wait & see ...........

last goodbye
wanna care don wanna care?up to u.guess,there's someone wooing u or trying to date you now.i don noe if u have the perseverence.i don noe.tomolo,i would be away for some time.don wanna spend tat day or watch a movie with me.fine with it.

Re: Jamie-
say you were at ur grandma house the whole day.but you could tag.say you went ur grandma hse with ur whole family.but i called wrongly,called ur hse.someone picked up.sighs.i don noe.can you tell me?sorry.i was out,grandma hse.but i accidentally called ur hse.haven even ring,they jus picked up.plspls.tell me why can?sighsi wanna go watch movie with you

happy anniversary=] 27o1oSix
tomorrow's 27th.haas.guess you're onli willing to keep ur frens entertained.Well,today when i saw you with those guys.I'm wondering.Well,i'm fuming.But wat can i do?run there,ask u?call ur fren?Nope.I did nothing.I don have to ask or say anything.You know it urself.Coz even u don wanna say,wanna hide.I wont know also.Agree?Enjoy urself during chinese new yr.This isn't a yr for me.Everything's not right.U hiding frm me.Lying to me.Mixing with guys when you said you wont.Till you wann see me den say.I broke down.wat i wan say to u last night,i wrote in a letter.One day,particular day.When in need.You will get to read it.For u onli=)now,i can only stay aside.Subtle the pain.stand on the peak of the mountain.looking you from afar.I lost myself.My everything..oh ya.coz of wendy again.i quarrelled with kenneth.jus like how she spoiled us.sorry.I'm being a stalker to you.ur frens believe me.do you?i don noe.ask urself den.sorry.

Re; Jamie-
argh!reply my mail at 4.30.den i mail u.never rpl.den u rather change blog skin.and u still pu "MR MINGHAN" inside! HELL~you say you will delete it when u change skin.now u change skin le still don wanna take it away.Cant forget him right?!argh...den take away mine la ass..I'm going out later at 10 to the airport with kiat they all.to fetch Lim..I REALLY DON GET IT! TILL NOW AFTER EVEN WAT HE DID TO YOU.YOU STILL CANT FORGET HIM.I HATE THIS FEELING! SUCKS MAN! SAY MET U.JUS SAY TOMOLO PLEASE DEN SWITCH OFF PHONE.WATS THE MEANING OF THING.ASS`~

Re: Jamie-
your frens are impt to you.onli they can make you happy.Not me.Like wat u said,i always give you troubles.Nothin den happiness.Is tat really me?Hav you asked urself?if u kept ur phone properly.would ur parents find out?i told u once before,i don wan our relationship to be kept in the dark.i wan ur family to noe.But did you.Maybe you tried.but everytime we had to break up,you're the one deciding everything.i don hav a say.do i?abt wendy's stuff.you say it's my fault,you blame.well,it's oki for me.Since i've been maligned by almost EVERY single one in my life.including you.but have you thought?if u had nv ask val to msg her in the first place.would all this happen?Even i apologise now,it sounds kinda fake.coz u onli trust ur fren.Wat bout me?Mine are all bullshits.I gave you the best.taught you.But did i expect anything frm you?nv..onli letters.but have you?ya,i'm a picture of a sucker.I'M ALWAYS TRYING TO BE THE GOOD ONE.IN THE END,I'M THE ONE WHO'S BEING BLAMED ALL THE TIME.CAN I REALLY TURN OVER A NEW LEAF?CAN I?I WANNA BE ALONE FROM NOW ON.I DON WAN TO RELY ON MY FRENS EVER AGAIN.WHENEVER I FALL,YOU'RE ALWAYS ENCOURAGING ME.BUT NOW?EVEN THE ONE I LOVE & TRUST...DECIDED TO BELIEVE IN HER FRENZ.NOE HOW I FEEL?SORRY. USELESS ME NOW. I WANNA CRY,DON WANNA FALL SICK.CAN I? I CANT. Y?THERE'S A DEEP CUT IN IT. IT'S SUFFERING.NTH CAN HEAL IT.

Re: toyou,
you wanna play hard?lets get it started.=)i wont threat.jus play

Re: toyou,
orh...okokie.i noe..noe u're being accused being a hypocrite.i noe how's the feeling like.well,jus don bother bout those bitches lahz.since u already say they're bitches,wat for waste ur time & energy getting angry on them?they don noe how to utilise their brain.jus let them be.Jus keep ur cool.don let them noe u're easy irritated.they'll definitely make u even irritated.jus don feel anything,let them say watever they wan,till they're sick & tired .they'll stop it eventually.coz they already noe,no point continue speaking ill of u.coz u don give a damn.tats wat i always do.well,sorry.i shouldn't say tat i'm [ur substitute].sighs.i noe u love me alot too.now i noe wat u realli wan...u realli need alot of time alone.cool off.jus study.rest don bother other irrelevant stuffs.i noe u're really tired coz of extra lessons * intensive tutions.But do take care of ur health oki?don skip ur meals! Though i wont be going for recess.i'll bring something to eat if i can la.Don worry k?i noe u don like me to skip recess .but no choice.i don wan to mix around.sorry.wait till u cool down le den have a good chat with me lors.take care baby gurl...ya.coz now having headache & gastric.so cant get to sleep.den yvonne jus called me frm New Zealand oso.haha.She say it's cold there!loll...k la.i noe u'll definitely nag at me if i still don slp..i'll try to slp noe okies?see ya in skool!
written` coffee guy
16o1o62.44am

2006-02-14T13:55:00.000+08:00

I WAS HERE!

2006-01-29T10:08:00.000+08:00

27th,i heard you calling me "xiao tou" again. Though it sounds awful, but i sense the feeling of accomplishment.Knowing,you accepted me once again.ILU=)

Third time we didn't get to celebrate the 27th again.sighs.It's the fifth month le.Anticipating for the twelve month? Hmmm. Last mth we can actually celebrate,but instead you went out with pings! Argh! You're driving me crazy.
This month, 'cause of wendy's stuff. We were like having a guerilla war. Playing hard against one another.Shall we stop? Now,it's chinese new year. Let start all over again alright?No one can ever spoil us. What you gave me, I would cherish. What i gave you , cherish it too! what we did together,where we went & wat we bought. Remember alright?!

I think,you're too weak & sensitive when it comes to "LOVE".you know why?'Cause you're afraid of losing,being hurt too. But you jus wont express it out or rather even say it . I mentioned before,i can nv make you jealous.Well,but i did before.

Sorry darling,for
1.Letting chingfang post in my blog (sept 13 'o5)
2.Messaging you to say guanting they all pinch me & stuffs.(dec 13 'o5)
3.Carrying guanting(jan 8 'o6)
4.Wendy tried to spoil us (jan 19 'o6)

I'm really sorry dearie.I cant pomise you tat it'll nv happen again.But i can assure you.Trust this relationship,have faith in me.Cause i will nv wan or rather say i will let you down.It's all because I LOVE YOU!

Jamie lim Yan Xiu,LISTEN UP CAREFULLY.Chris loh Yi Zhou only have one honey,one dearie,one da tou,one auntie,one darling,one dear & one mrs loh.THAT's YOU LA IDIOT!
Must I make it so clear to you?You should know the best lors! If i don love you,I wouldn't wan to go through all this hardships for you lors.BEN DAN!

I wanna list down the things i hate you to do!
1.LYING TO ME!
2.Mixing so much with guys with you a girl only!
3.ignoring me
4.Treat me like nothing
5.DRINKING!
6.Don wan to meet me
7.Going out with your frenz so much instead of me.
8.Telling me you will jump down with me!(ASS!)
9.Crying
10.Not telling me ur troubles

I know i made a big lie to you.But i really don wan you to worry & get hurt.Making you feel i'm a burden to you.Sighs.But you forced me to say.But wat a said cannot be taken back right?So,since i've tell you.You have a real burden le,i must report whatever things to you.You must take good care of me.You must look after me.You must not leave me alone!

I have to eat breakfast le.Message me again lors.

Love you lotss!
mr loh`
29o1oSix

2006-01-16T23:13:00.000+08:00

The small head ADDICT hasn't been in a good mood since 3rd jan right?In skool,pissed by some bitches! Argh! Who's the one who dare to bully my big head dear?!?!

hmmm,da tou...Don't be too bothered by those uncivilised human eyesore..Loll..My words are kinda curt though..They wanna talk behind ppl's back?Wanna stare?Wanna knock?Why not go become gangsters?But i doubt they have the guts to do so..Haas..are they really 16 this yr?I tink they're still not suitable to watch NC16 movies though they really are.

Well,da tou..Don waste ur time & energy gettin irritated by those bitches.They're jus to ignorant.Too proud too..Maybe they're really jealous of wat u posesse?ur good grades?ur elegant?We both wont noe.Only the hypocrites noe.=x

Jus now in msn u asked me y we dislike "Jiayi" right?There's no particular reason for why we dislike her.Maybe we jus find her an eyesore all the time during recess since last yr.Tink bout mid july bah.But i didn't noe her name till i saw the class photo.and so coincident,it's the girl u hate! In skool,now you priorities is to study & get the grades you wan.Not to hav any conflicts with ur "CLASSMATES".<--Referring to the bitches onli.

Please do not get into any unnecessary troubles oki?It's the last year,teacher got to write testimonial bout u eh.So keep you clean conduct away from DIRTS!Loll.

I don noe where're you now,11 plus le.Say you'll sms me.But you nv lors.Sighs.Well,today in msn,least you're not tat irritated.Get to talk to you nicely.HaHa.See,isn't it good when we talk peacefully?When we can joke around too.Though i'm a little jealous bout the topic u talk to ur GUY frens about!GRRR!Idiot!I hate you.

Next fri wats the occasion?Wahaha.It's supposedly to be out 5th anniversary lors!ARgh! We can nv celebrate it peacefully lors.Maybe the 6th month? and 27o8oSix?? Hmmm,hope wish pray we can go out alright?I really do misses the outings we had.Esplanade,suntec city,marina square,marina bay & food restaurants we went too.Even Kbox! Maybe after our O's,we shall go visit all these places again?! I cant wait for tat day man! Where i can drie u around too!!! Gosh! I wanna buy the car which u love like hell! But it's $77,000 lors. -.-"

Maybe buy it next yr when Coe drop bahz,i'm not tat rich to afford such luxurious car alright.Though u're not materialistic,but u wont wan a small head dear to drive around with such an unsightful car right?Loll.I'll make ur wish come true!no worries.

I'm so tired now..Still got so much homework haven complete eh.sighs.Die..It's Ms wong's hw somemore lors.Argh.I muz finish it tonight by hook or by crook!I don give a damn bout sleeping man!Studies more impt.I noe wat you wan say le.

You:"baby boy,health's important too u noe?!*smack butt*"

me:"ya la ya la".

see,i can read ur mind lors.Dumbo! Bleahs.

oh ya,in skool.Every morning,i wan u to look at me when i walk out of the hall! Go recess,come fourth floor den go down.I cant go ur class there,cause i'll end up walking one round lors.Give in a little can?='(

Hmmm,i'll be staying almost everyday.finish hw den go home have tution.I wanna break my past records of my poor results!Hope i can lors.sighs.Seems pessimistic hors?no choice.I gotta work hard too.Not for me alone!It's for us!Yeah!Lets countdown for the last day of O level! I gotta do hw le.takkare big head!=]

Thank you for being ADDICTED!

But i'm HOOKED!

mUacKs.ilu

Long smooch`

chris loh..

2006-01-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

that small head dear have blogged so i will follow up.
i never give my email and number to a lot of guys okie? i really hate it when you say that. so blame yourself for ruining my new year!` i told you le. i will tell you gradually why i`m addicted to you. but not now.
i`m always telling you i can`t wait to go to school right? cos i really wanna see you everyday. with no restrictions and without lying to my mother. that`s what i want. now that i`m blogging here. i`m so scarred that they will see it. but i wanna convey all these to you. and my mother`s like walking around. darn stressed.
i like to see you in uniform you know? don`t know why. i`m mad. loll. can`t wait to study hard either. can`t wait for my o level to be over. i really can`t wait.
we`ve been out for 3 days consecutively!` but i knew you had to wait for me or my friends for 4 hours. and yesterday. sorry. don`t talk about the past right. but i still gotta aplogise. for the things i did.
last holiday, many things happened. but i gotta admit. sometimes i`m happy when you`re jealous. wahahaha. this shows you love me okie? =] but as i promised you, i won`t you jealous. you shouldn`t be jealous. have faith in this relationship of ours. ian and i are past. friends. normal friends. i think he`s clear enough. zhizhong, i told you he`s staying in 4e3 right? but he checked again. and it was like. false alarm?
i really enjoyed the times i spent with you. the past few days. thou i had a hard time when i got home. but sigh, i don`t wanna talk about it. and dear, don`t buy so many things for me alright? i don`t need anything. i don`t want you to buy anything. i don`t feel happy when i receive it. even the jigsaw. i feel guilty. i hate it. cos you spent to much money and effort. and nothing for yurself.so please don`t do that alright?
these few weeks, months. thankyou for tolerating my nonsense. i`m really ridiculous at times. especially my temper, i`m too spoilt i know.but i don`t wanna change. i wanna stay this way!` i wanna be spoilt. i just wanna live with my own attitude, simple. that`s all. but when i have to change. i will.
yah,i`ve been very vulgar right? sorry. especially with those [fcuk] sorry. i`ll change. cos i know if i go to school, it may be worse. i can even scold things worse then [fcuk]] but i changed. loll, like you. i`ve my past too. but who cares right? it`s the present.
i got myself drunk too. yah, i`m afraid now. bitten once, i never wanna touch it again. but as time goes i will see. thou it was a painful experience. but i`m glad you were there for me. sigh. i was..the feeling is totally undescribable. just sucks. that`s all. i broke my promise, i drank without you. i don`t mind you controlling me. like what my parents say? for my age. i`m wild.
sorry. i`m always breaking my promises but you never failed to forgive me. thankyou hubby!`
i wil try to cut down on my swearings and stop drinking. cos yah..i admit. i`m really kinda wild.
the trip to taiwan i was kinda sleep, cried without anyone knowing. but yah. from there, i adapt to that place. or i will be worse than that. luckily my fever stopped on the second day and stuff. i was so relieved.
wahahah, and you know what? i love to threaten you. just love to see yur reaction.
i`m indecisive. i wanna grow up fast. but i still wanna be spoilt. be a baby in my parent`s eyes. i`m greedy. want everything.
i apologise, i bought nothing for you. from taiwan.
after knowing you. i`ve learnt a lot of things. in life. take initiative in saying things i never did before. like sorry. in the past, to me. it was the hardest word to say. after knowing you, i treasured my friends and family more.
yah, i do pay for them at times. but they do pay me back, or just like treat me and stuff. i`m fine. i just need your guidance. that`s all. the path is mine, i gotta walk on. or i`ll be stucked in the middle forever.
easily said than done right? i`m so foolish. loll.
whatever it is, i just need you. and i`m glad you`re always there.
thankyou hubby.

lots of hugs and kisses,
Jaeeee.

A new beginning

2006-01-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

Once again.The blog has revived after 2 months!
Yeah! 'cause it's a new yr...Both you and me had agreed
to start everything anew and leave the painful past behind.
Wahaha.Jamie!I hav lots and lots to tell you eh.Coz,these few
days,we'd went out and enjoyed ourself so much!Agree?
And we did so many things,played arcade,walking in the
rain at marina,protected you,and lot more!Dearie,enjoy
urself right?Esp at the shelter at marina.It's like,the whole
park belong to us lors.HaHa.You are so save in the shelter,
but i'm in pain!Bitten by so many insects till my legs all swollen.
Sighs.Painful and itchy.I scratch till it bleed le.I really cant stand
the itch man.Sorry.

Well,in msn.You set nick set as "i'm addicted to you".I'm really touched.
I really do.But i don really get to noe fully why are u addicted.'Cause you
claimed tat you'll tell me gradually.But you nv lors.Hmmm.Let me guess
so much.It's a New YeaR!So i don wan to bring up our past again!HeHe.
Lets live our new year's life fully!And meanwhile,endure the last crucial
lap of ours!We can do it! Tell urself tat dearie! After we made it,the least
trouble and burden we'll have for our realtionship.

I wanna take this chance to apologise to you too.Sorry dearie.I've said some
things which are very hurting these few days.I'm sorry.I hope you can forgive
me.So bad right ur hubby?You love him so much,and this is wat u get.I promise
you,i'll nv do it again.There're really some things i don like abt.I'll list it below.
Some i've already sms you,so those not mentioned i'll write it down here.=)

1.I don like u to post so many pics in frendster.
2.I don wan ppl who can view ur profile so easily.
3.I don wan you to give ppl ur email add and contact no.
4.I don wan u to sms so much with those guys.

Can you do it?Hmmm.I really care alot for you.Thats y i hav restriction for you.
Don say i will care for other girls.Coz i onli care for you.It's really onli you.I don noe
wat can actually made me be so addicted to you too!HaHa.Tats for both of us to find
out too.I finish my dinner le lahz.Don worry..Now you're having ur dinner.And i finish
blogging le!

I love you honey,dearie,mrs loh,baby gurl,mummy,dear,luo sao,da tou!
I really love you alot!
Wahaha!Bleahs.DA TOU!

lots of love`
Chris loh
01/01/06
8.58pm

2005-10-27T08:23:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the late update....

Well...Though we've been seperated,but tat doesn't mean tats the end of us...

We still have a long long way to go...Remember wats we'd agreed earlier on?

We agreed to wait & strive hard for our very own.Not for you,not for me...

It's for Us!

Today is the 27th!Suppose to be our 2nd month together....

But yet...We cant celebrate...

Nvm...Next week,We shall go to esplanade once again!Tats ur favourite place!

We'll stay there the whole day....As long as u wish....Haas!I promise...

Hmmm...Tat day,i read something which I'd written for you right,guess you don't

really get to hear it properly or understand...I'll write it here den...

"Can you think of anyone who is

not afraif of change?Yet we all

set off on our journey through life

in search of love,blissfully unaware

tat love inevitably changes us.Love

Demands change,jus as nature demands

magnificient summer to mature into the

richness of fall,to recede into the still

quiet of winter,& den burst forth into the

excitement of spring to bcum once more

glorious summer.And love,too,has it's

seasons.When we reach the time in our

lives when we are prepare to love and

be loved,we mus oso be prepared and willing

to accept the changes love will bring!"

Get this in ur heart,"Love finds us when we are ready to change."

HaHa...Slowly go figure out wat these mean...

From now on,don ever mention tat u're a burden to me jus bcoz of all sorts of reason.

Let me tell you...You're not!Coz of all these,it made u even the unique on!

I mean my word....Don ever say tat again kaes?!It really amputated my heart!

Don ever drop hint to me tat other gals are nice!Don agitate me with this!

Coz as u see...I don usually get rather interested in gals out there....I'm packed enuff...

How in the world is it possible tat i would look for another gal???EXCEPT FOR YOU!!!

Haas...Now u're in skool...Suppose to send you to skool this morning,but my dad wanted me to go his office...In the end turn out i didn't...Coz of tat damn phone!I cant rpl ur msg...Felt so irritated man...Sighs....Nvm...Now can rpl le...So it's oki!

Tomolo we'll go for movies le!!!!

Yeah Yeah!!!

Take care sWeeTie!

mR loH`

271o05'

08.23am

2005-10-21T14:16:00.000+08:00

this blog, should be left un-touched until we`re back together again

we shall see, if we will be defeated by time.
today, thanks. thanks for making a trip outside school to help my younger sister. but, it kinda didn`t help. cos luoping`s sister said she wanted to go home and blah blah blah. purely hum. i can`t stand such freaks. who cares if suaidi was there. he`s fucked up too. nevermind, i get a little pissed when i talk about this.

what happened yesterday, i apologise. it`s like.. i gave you a lot of promises, but i broke most of them, oh no, it should be i broke all of them. i will still listen to you, takkare of myself and stuff. but a clear cut. i appreciate everything, every single thing you have done for me. it`s barely two months and this thing happened. my deepest apologies. =)
thanks for always doing tihngs my way, for instance, this incident.you didn`t have a say in anything. i didn`t give you a chance to disagree, i forced you to accpet everything i said.not giving you a chance to speak. sorry. selfish me. i apologise too.
yesterdaye, shu min called me and said you were crying. i`m so sorry. you cried many times for me, you told me. sigh, don`t cry for me. i`m not worth your tears, thou you said i am, my mindset`s already there. and realy very very very very very very very sorry, your mother.. i really hope she`s okie. send my regards to her. for because of me, she was worried for you.
you`ve a lot of problems like what you said, your grandma, your business, your parents` business, your health, and your bills. sigh, don`t worry so much yah, chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi. things will turn out find, just never give up, that is when you will fail. be stong ya? i`ll give you my morale support. jia you. =)

you have a lot of things in life you wanna achieve, this relationship of ours can wait, if time is defeated by us, then we willl be together. you don`t have to promise me that i will be the only mrs loh and stuff, it`s really vacant, i`m miss lim. sorry, =) if we get defeated by time...then we will talk about it then yah?. one year, it`s fast. everything will be okie soon. never let what happened yesterday affect you. instead you should be happy, i`m not trying to laugh at you or anything. but although your mother`s in hospital. this somehow proves one thing, she cares for you a lot. she`s willing to share your problems with you, so don`t disappoint her. take good care of your siblings. your life ain`t miserable. you still have more obstacles, that`s where you learn to be strong and start to mature,
takkare guy.
miss lim,

2005-09-30T18:56:00.000+08:00

Hey dearie...
I'm jus tryin to write out what and how
i'm feeling right now...

"A Letter For You"

Hmmm....Though i usually don tink or bother much

when u're jus tat close to guys...I really hate it...I don dare

to voice out is bcoz i don wan to make u unhappi...I don like to

see tat sad look on you...I admit....No matter which daniel u're smsin with,

which zhi zhong u're communicating with,ian u're caring for....I realli

dislike it...I hate it...I realli do...I don wan the same thing to happen to me

again...And like wat it did happened to bren and dar...i'm realli afraid...

Sometimes,i realli wan to shoot u with an incredulous look or attitude...

but i don wan....Coz u're my beloved...And i realli realli,sincerely & faithfully loves you.

doubt my words...doubt my feelings not!not tat i don trust u...It's onli tat,i realli hate my gf to be tat close to guys...and even care for then...For ur phone bill...half of it is already being

used by communicating with them...i don feel right...Though i noe it's crude to say all this...

but i already cant take it...I'm selfish...I wan u to be like bren...But i noe it may nt be possible..

I can tolerate...But....it's explosive...sometimes u can see the gloomy side of me...

u can see the contented side too...when i can see you and holding ur hands...

how i wish u can nt stay so close to those guys..."You don hav to care so much for them...

coz they're nt urs...U can be there....But not over concerned...there're

ppl who love them would do...you're

always initiating to do so...i don understand y?I don like it"...

this is wat i wan to say...

Accept it or not...It's up to u...Coz i cant possibly force u....It's ur life...

It realli is...And when i'm saying all this....I'm piercing my very own heart

to spill all these out...sorry...don ever tell me to look for another gal!it's useless...

I wont....i apologise....Coz i realli need u...If i should ever loose u...I don noe how

scorn can i be....I realli don noe....Maybe after reading this....U wanna reconsider,

i definitely wont stop u...I noe it's useless....Coz i'm a scum...U wont wan a scum to be ur

bf...It's oso nt tat i'm pessimistic,i'm jus afraid of loosing once again...

Esp 'Jamie Lim Yan Xiu'....

Tats all....

Love always

Chris...

3o/o9/2o05

call me after u'd read lopz....

And i'd promise u to go for the check up le....

so i definitely will go...I don wan to disappoint u....

i don wan to hurt u.!

I wan to love you!

keep u by my side forever!!!

I mean wat i say....

And tats it!

Nth will ever change.....

Decision is urs.....

2005-09-27T05:39:00.000+08:00

yayy!!` on our first month, i shall blog. =)
i woke up and study again. and sorry dear, i wanted to tolerate till twelve last night. and obviously, i didn`t. so sorry.

there are many dates we must remember. but the most important one, is 270805.
i love you dearie.
muacks!`

gotta go study my chem,
Jaeeeee`so

2005-09-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

Hmmm....Dear....Don tink so much kk?

Read the below song lyrics...

Tat is really wat i wan to tell you....

From the bottom of my heart...

U can choose to believe it or not...

But let me tell u this....

I am true to u!!!

~+~ LoVe PaRaDiSe` ~+~

*Y0u're alwAys 0n mY mInd
all dAy jusT all th3 tIme
y0u're evEryThinG t0 m3
bRighTest stAr t0 leT m3 seE

y0u t0ucH m3 In mY dREams
wE kisS In everY sceNe
I prAy t0 bE wIth y0u
thr0ugh rAIn and sHinY daYs*

#I'll l0v3 yoU tiLL I diE
deeP aS sEa wIde aS skY
The beaUty 0f 0uR l0v3 paInts rAinBows
eVerywhEre we g0

neeD y0u all mY lIfe
y0u'rE mY h0pe y0u'Re mY pRiDe
In uR arms I finD mY hEaveN
In youR eyEs mY seA anD sKy
maY lIfe b3 0ur l0v3 paRadiSe#

LoVe yOu LoTx!

to: mrs jamie, mrs yanxiu, dearie, *AuNtIe*, _pIgGy`, MrS LOH

2005-09-20T20:20:00.000+08:00

hmmm, today.. we sort of quarrelled.
don`t worry dear, i remember what`s next tuesday. i know what`s the BIG THING.
it`s our first month. i never will forget. =)
yeah, we quarrelled bout daniel teng.
but, i have something else to tell you too. but can`t find any better ways to tell you.

daniel teng`s not important. the poly daniel, daniel cheng..
remember monday morning?..i sent you a message thanking you. you must be wondering why i did that right?
i made a mistake. if you didn`t forget..you sent me a icon which says. [if you`re sweet and sincere i call you my dear, if you`re kind and funny i call you my honey, if you`re caring and smart i call you my sweetheat. if you`re all of the above, then it must be true love]] you sent it to me thru msn. so when i woke up on monday morning, i received a MMS. it was exactly the same thing. without thinking much, i assumed it was you, since i received the same thing before.. until today morning, daniel smsed me... asking me if i received the MMS. that was then i realised.. it was sent by him not by you. i was darn guilty..i wanted to clarify with you..but it was so difficult, i didn`t know how to put it as i know, you hate such things. you know, i told you before, daniel cheng call me dear at times, told him it was impossible between us. but, it doesn`t seem to work.
but dear, you don`t have to worry. cos i love you only yah? =)
i wanna lie on yur shoulder tomorrow.
and thank you for bringing me to jurong point on saturday. i enjoyed it like hell.
i like the necklace and the flower too.

lots of love,
Jaeeee`so

to: mr chris, mr yizhou, dearie, DEAR, coffee guy, small boy, my guy, cutie pie, my hubby, mr loh.

2005-09-15T19:30:00.000+08:00

lalalalala, you`ve post so much. but i haven been here for ages.

your friend`s so cute!`. hahaha. nelson.
very funny guy. very quiet. tried talking to him when you weren`t around. but all he did was to nod his head. made me damn.. speechless. haha. but first times, always like this. go out on a double date with him and his girl next time. loll, then he won`t be so quiet le bah. =)

sorry dear, i know i`m always hanging out with guys. but..hmmm, let me tell you my thoughts. before i met you, i was single for like err... since last year`s december. quite long eh?. so..hmm. i don`t know why..to me, guys..are my friends too. maybe cos i`m single. i have no restrictions in hanging out with guys.but now that i`m attached with you, i know i should refrain myself from hanging out too often with them. especially ian..right?. sorry. cos we sit together in class. that`s why..we are like buddies. share our secrets and stuff. it`s been going on for quite a while..and brenda did had a conflict with ian before cos of this. so i don`t want to make ian feel as if he`s hated by everyone cos..he just got rejected by our classmate. i think you know right?. and as for my primary school friends. i can assure you cos all of them are attached. the only person who can snatch me away is sue ping? =x i know i seldom spend tiem with you. cos i`m always with my friends. sorry. but i always have so much fun going out with you. that`s why when you wanted to send me home today and wanted to take the train straight to khatib, cos i wanted to spend more time with you. =)

jealousy`s one of your worries. when you told me that just now, i wanted to tell you..[get rid of me, so you will have one lesser thing to worry about] but i know you would get angry. i stopped myself. but i realy felt bad when you told me that. the first thing that came to my mind was [i`m a burden to you]] i felt like dying, but i know you don`t want me to worry. so i just stopped there.
i know you don`t like it when i talk about daniel. both the poly one and our school one. sorry. i will stop myself. our school`s daniel..he`s in love with one girl already. as for the poly one, i think you should know.

my promises to dear:
-takkare of myself, so he don`t have to worry.
-hang out less often with guys.
-do well in my studies,never give up in studying no matter how hard it is
-never quarrel with my family members cos your family is the most important and closest people to you.
-don`t stay overnight when i`m away for bbq or when i don`t have a decent place to stay.

2005-09-09T14:12:00.000+08:00

TO LOVE IS TO TAKE RISK`

It is the curious nature of humankind that a

great many of us are prepared only to

understand that which we are taught.Everything

else is percieved as too great a risk.We convince

ourselves that this way of living is satisfactory.

How,then,can we ever know love? If we don't,

We'll go to the grave brimming over with all the

love we neve gave--a life spent advoiding the

"pains" of love will have been a life that missed

out on great happiness. Living this way risks nothing

and misses everything. So whatever you do in your

lifetime,ensure it is done in the spirit of "LOVE"...

Dedicated To : JaMiEe` aka *PiGgY*

2005-09-08T11:27:00.000+08:00

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

But I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find, you and I collide

Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

read the lyrics, hear the song. i think it`s time you should understand the gap between us.

2005-09-08T01:06:00.000+08:00

lalalalal, it`s my turn to post. =)

whee!` we went out on o6.o9`o5. yeps yeps!` and we had fun!`, right dearie?. thou some things happened. but no worries, you`ll be okie right? mr loh.
don`t ever ask me to reconsider again, don`t ask me if i ever regret. cos i didn`t. i swear. i told you before, doubt anything else. but never doubt my love for you.
get this into yur head yah? -.-

ransom lettter lyrics;
so you stole my heart, and left me a ransom letter
demanding I treat you better, should I ever want it back and
now I'm all alone
dreams are all forgotten, memories all turned rotten, it's not
the same on the phone

so what's up girl?
things haven't changed a bit since we last met
I bet my bottom dollar you're the best, girl that I ever had
I never wanna lose you
so what's up?

I can't let you walk away
we planned to live forever in each others arms
so
please hold on
you know-no one will love you like i do!
and that's the thing-you know it too

I hear our song; it keeps playing on the radio
you're on my mind, I can't let you go
I'm all alone and I just want you to hold
please take my hand. never let me go
I hear our song it keeps playing on the radio
you're on my mind, I can't let you go
please make your mind up, don't see what the future holds

see the lyrics, read it thru. yur hearts stolen? and i can`t return it back either. so yur heart must be stuck with me, no regrets right? =)
when i`m away for the bbq, you must be a good boy yah?.
you gottta rest well!`. cos you fainted.
sorry dear, instead of taking care of you, i actually provoked you and quarrelled with you.

o7.o9`o5
i met dear at night. to have his dinner. he`s so cute man. he looks cute in his specs too. loll. as we waited for our friend`s bus to come. then he sent me back.i didn`t pinch yur cheeks today!` unfair. i must pinch it first thing in the morning.
dear, i really love you a lot you know?. so you can`t leave me.

don`t argue with me, saying i have a lot of boyfriends and need my friends more okie?. i have guy friends, girl friends. but only one hubby.that`s you!`. i`m greedy and unreasonable. i want both you and my friends!` i don`t care.

and lastly, if really we should part cos of some reasons. cos of what people say, cos of my reputation. i really don`t mind. based on reputation stuff, sorry. i don`t give a damn about what they say. i seriously don`t. so you don`t have to be so heartless and leave me right? i know who i love, i don`t need anyone to tell me. i know who i should love, i don`t need anyone to tell me. i know whether you`ve changed for the better, no one have to tell me. i don`t care bout those who wanna break us up. cos it`s impossible. i jsut want you!`. i don`t care. =)

i love you dearie!`.
take good care of yurself.
muacks!`
mrs loh.

2005-09-07T12:44:00.000+08:00

WhooW!
Finally I'm here to blog again!
It has been a "decade" ever since i came to blog yea?=p

6th Sept o5`

Hmmm..Gotta my lil piggy after my Social Studies 'N' Level paper....

Gosh!I was so excited abt goin out with u tat i couldn't concentrate on the paper u noe?

HaAs!But I still manage to complete the paper though....

It's wasn't really difficult..*I didn't really studied*

Onli one chapter i studied for came out!

WaHaHaHa!

Well,met piggy at around 4 plus...She bought a Billabong shorts for me!

She was suppose to come up my hse first me meet my mum u noe?

But she's currently in a dilema...*Too Shy*

LoLx...

After which....Took a train and went to Orchard...piggy din really intend to go there in the first place...But,she still went there with me lahz...HaAs...Such an obedient sweetie...

Nahz...She's not obedient!She's simply sweet & easy going!

But still,"OBSTINATE" at times! *BlEaX*

Well..went window shopping around orchard before we went for dinner at Burger King!

But even before we reach Bk,I saw some ppl whom i don wanna mention!

So infuriating man!

Nvm...Dinner still need to be eaten!HaHa...

Around 8 plus...We went back to Katib...Walked around the park there....

*Some Things Shudn't Be Mentioned*

Parted around 10.45pm after sending piggy home!

Enjoyable Day!!!

2005-08-30T16:39:00.000+08:00

boy boy,
these few days, i really think..you like to keep things to yurself.
i really feel very odd when you did that.
i think i told you before.

but, if you don`t wanna say it out, then it`s okie. =)
study hard guy.
get all the 'A's

2005-08-21T22:37:00.000+08:00

wheeets, as what i promised, i`m here to blog!`
loll, i went out today, with my brother of mine that is. but only for a while, sorry. cos my mother called me and asked me to go home.
so gor, i promise you, we will have neoprints next week!` wahaha.
and you gotta work hard for yur n level yah?
don`t think of other things ler. just study and study and study.

hmmm, although, we do quarrel a lot at times, and sometimes it`s pratically everyday. i really did get pissed off at first. but now i`m sort of used to it. and i don`t think we actually quarrel these few days ler. so it`s not that bad right?

i don`t blame you either. cos really, you are darn stress, and busy. so it`s okie gor. no worries.
thou going out with you can be a torment cos whenever i get a little cazie, you will just like what you are, expressionless. it`s so odd lah?
and seesh, you`re always on the phone. now you know why whenever i`m out with you i`m so quiet? =x loll, but nevermind, you`re busy. so yah. forgivable.

and it`s true, i`m bias. cos i`m always neglecting. cos i care botu my friends more. they are liek the most important people in my life, i gotta admit. i dunch know why either. to me, i never really relied on my god-brothers and sisters. cos, we aren`t as close you see? and for my family, it`s kinda difficult to tell them my stuff. =) so i gotta apologise, cos my friends always get the top priority. sorry.

so you gotta bear with my biasness yah? i will change.
and oh, stop snatching me around.
and lastly, i quarrelled with him. pardon me but, bloody hell.
i`m darn irritated now. wahahah.

2005-08-20T20:23:00.000+08:00

Hmmm....Finally my prelim is over...Now i hav the time to write a better & detailed post...HaHa...Well,during the prelim period....I'm a little stressed out,coz of the chemistry paper...Chem is my second strongest subject,but i actually didn't noe how to do some question!Gosh!Wats happenin to me?ven Mr Tan told me tat my chem is slightly dropping....Sighs...Wat am i suppose to do now?I really hope i can do well for my 'N' level....Tats my onli wish for the time being...Nothing else....Of coz,i hope my pal could take gd care of theirselves & study hard...So at the end of the yr,we can enjoy together again!HaHa....Most imptly,Jamie....I hope u can learn how to take care of urself more....Don make me worry all the time....Though i find it a nuisance of tat...But,u're my lil one afterall.....I'll still take care of u....Oso will be there for u lahz...So don worry.....

Btw...Mei,sorry tat i'm always trying to show my temper to u...Well,now i sincerely apologise to u....I noe i'm quite hard to please...do bear wit me at times k...I'm realli sorry....If u wan,maybe u can go ahead & scold me..It's oki....Coz i noe it doesn't feel good when u got reprimanded by someone when u did nothing wrong....So,jus go ahead k?I wont blame u....But do hav limit ar!Else we'll end up quarelling again...HaHa....

cHrIs`

2005-08-14T16:52:00.000+08:00

hmm, gor it`s okie.
i was rude too, sorry.
jia you yah? study hard!!!!`

Jaeee`so

2005-08-14T15:11:00.000+08:00

Hey...here to blog lerz...Hmmm....Jamie,i'm sorry for wat i said to u last few days..It's maybe i'm quite disturbed by some matters & including some work stuffs which i'm working on now..Also bcoz tomolo is my prelims lerX....I'm a little stressed up....If u feel a little not rite..Pls forgive me KaEx?i'm doin it on purpose...Well,u be good ar....Remember to hav ur meals on time...Oso to slp early!Stop complainin to me tat u're tired!U're a PIG u noe????HaHa....K lahz...I'll stop here....Gota continue wit my porpopsal liaoz....Hope u'll feel better after reading this.....

2005-08-13T21:36:00.000+08:00

see!` i`m doing what i`m supposed to do. i posting again. cos my brother wil be busy with his proposal and also studying for his prelims.
so gor, you gotta hang on yah? cos i know you can do it!`
i gotta study too, cos my tests are starting again. so i`m afraid we`ll neglect this blog for a period of time. =)
gor, we gotta study hard. for our own good.
wheewheets!`
we rock.
Jaeee`so

2005-08-12T23:31:00.000+08:00

Well...I'm still workin on the proposal kae...Tats y i asked u to blog first...HaHa....How long will this blog last ah..Let me tink..Should be when blogspot server is downed!Lols...So bad of me to say tat!Hmmm....MDM JAMIE....Can u pls turn in early as u hav to wake up early tml mornin?HaaS...I shall end here...Leave it to jamie to blog next time!AhHaHs......

2005-08-12T22:56:00.000+08:00

as mr chris is doing his proposal, i have to wreck my brains to get a long post out,
hmm, i wonder who`s supposed to sleep early today GUY.
you`re like hooked onto your proposal ler. so i doubt you`re going to keep yur promise right?
i`m so sleepy now, i can just doze off any minute. =x
i gotta wake up early tomorrow!!` , this is what you call PATHETIC.
we shall see how long can this blog last yah?
so it also marks how long we can be siblings.
this blog was officially started on 12o8o5,
like woops, i think i took away the picture and tagboard. sorry!!`
that`s the longest i can go ler.
i think this post is long enough.
Jaeeee`so
for, us